Pussy Done Dried Up Like Fast Money

I found one of the last public posts I ever made, on this Suicide Girls.com-oriented group, on Livejournal last year. I still use stolen passwords to view the site (or do I, e-police?), but a combination of growing older and finding the alt/scene culture aesthetic mostly artless and an ugly commodity of bored white teens and the declining interest/quality of the site makes me apathetic about this sort of thing. But, regardless, it's a surprisingly good quality diatribe, considering how much I hate everything I create.

Happy Halloween!

Culled from "SGirls" pseudo-anti-Suicide Girl community/LJ Drama group:

Does anyone ever consider that, although I was surprised to find that with HBO, the internet, a DVD, and Spin magazine a lot of people aren't aware of SG's existence, that eventually this whole "alt" thing will burn out like everything else does? Isn't it essentially pokemon with tits (or something synonymous from slash fiction, maybe)

There doesn't seem to be much foresight about this. Tastes change, people become fickle, and things fall apart. Most of the girls (with, obviously, some exceptions) on SG and Godsgirls and etc. aren't much any more different or intelligent or provocative or special as they're advertised. Maybe if you're from the suburbs or the midwest/biblebelt the idea of alt-porn might be strange and interesting, but it becomes too easy to see through the bullshit. Adorning a retarded white girl in sceneXclothes and copy/pasting her myspace/vampirefreaks.com interests to her profile doesn't make her any better than let's say some random Bangbros.com actress. Its gotten old, I dunno.

When I first ran into the whole SG/Burning Angel thing I thought it was amazing. This was back when there was maybe 50 SG's, and 14 year olds are easily impressed. Now there's 1200, and the SG's who left were the INTERESTING ones. The remainder all look alike (which is saying something for a scene website), and out of the hordes of leftovers, not even half would illicit a second glance. Whatever prestige and bragging rights (and boy, do they brag. I've been at plenty shows and seen as well as heard of girls running up to bands ranting about how they're SG's looking for some non-existant Willy Wonka pass at a death metal show) there were are gone. If the archetype has to do drastic Wal-mart deals and specials (3 sets a day? How many girls will that acrue by next year) to retain interest, how could the offshoots and knockoffs survive?

I think at this point, its halfway through 2006, I've been checking the site for 4 years now, and the "alt" thing has lost momentum, and maybe instead of 16-20 year old girls jumping to SG and every SG competitor, to give some thought about business and the inevitable truth of the internet, that any photo of you with make its way across the internet for all time (until we're all killed by the yellowstone caldera). Yeah, there are a lot of girls who just want to be naked or want to use these sites to get a fetish or nude modelling "career" going, and that's awesome, but by the looks of the many 18-20 year old girls who joined the site in the last year and a half, most are SG fans who just really wanted to be a SuicideGirl (or whatever knockoff would take them). I know people are retarded inherantly, but its not a very good sign of where we're at when you can actually hear girls say "I wanna be a suicide girl!", or "Do you think they'd accept me?"

This is off-topic, but I've also noticed a correlation between SG and the droves of annoying scene girls and their pretentious smugness and constant self-reference as "cunts". Once again, this shit might be cool in Arkansas or Utah (since everyone seems to love SLC Punk so much) but if you're a bohemian liberal hippie douchebag, which I guess is the base of alt-porn, it gets old. What is everyone going to do when all the positive and negative exposure doesn't do anything? It actually seems to have had a detrimental effect, seeing as the porn/media take Rob Rotten and Joanna Angel a lot more seriously tha SG or "GodsGirls". The people seem to be speaking, and they don't want cookie cutter pictures of cookie cutter girls with all of this faux-empowerment and air of self-importance, they want those same naked scene girls to get double penetrated on screen, with no Jhonen Vasquez or Boondock Saints references and no force-feeding of "substance". Alt-PORN might actualy continue to break the mainstream, because:

(1)SG is not porn, is not usually titillating and is not usually sexy. It really just boils down to naked scene girls. You could get the same effect by trolling myspace or playboy or phun.org or xpeeps or slipping someone a rufee at an Atreyu show. Having tattoos or piercings doesn't make you less boring or ugly. (And I acknowledge that there is a nebulus grey area on whether softcore porn is really porn and not nude modeling. But honestly, if you showed the average Bangbros or Clubjenna subsriber SG they would laugh and tell you that's not porn)

(2) Burning Angel, for any shared personality flaws inherant with twenty-soemthing tattoed white girls actually seems to have empowered women. If I had a friend who was taking a women studies liberal arts course, I'd refer her to "Cum on my tattoo", not SG or Godsgirls or Fatal Beauty or Blueblood or CityKittie, etc.